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Fucking Lame

Every week on the Not the Show podcast, Joe plugs this site. Every week, I let him, and sometimes there is a comment about how I don’t post on it very often.

Like, almost never.

I would say that of all the things I’ve posted on my blogs, eighty percent mention my lack of posting.

Fucking lame.

Since my last post, I have become fucking lame in other ways.

My last trip to Florida to see my girls ended in disaster. My car died in Florida, and I limped back to Winston-Salem a changed man. Without a vehicle, I am trapped in the small apartment I call home. I take a bus to work, which I honestly don’t mind. And I take a bus home, and then walk about a mile and a half through Downtown to get home. I currently can’t afford to enjoy living Downtown, so it’s just a walk now. When I get home, I try and write while watching TV. And mostly fail at the writing part.

I went through a period of depression and some physical issues, probably made worse by the depression.

Things have been getting better. Though without a car, I still have to rely on folk for my grocery shopping, laundry and just getting shit done. And this is depressing as well.

I think, more often than usual, that moving here was a mistake. I think about packing my shit and heading into the snow of New York, or the sun of Florida. And I don’t really want to do either. What I’d like to do is get my head back in the game, get my shit together and Do Something. Stop being Fucking Lame.

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